All sorts!!!!!!!!!!!

My ex sent me a text last nite saying I had put him in trouble...



Nothing nasty, more like a mischievous text in fact.



I called back but he was already asleep, so this morning I call him and he says " oh some chick he's seeing found out we had shagged after breaking up(Okafor's law was in effect here)!!



And i thought big deal,i'm not going to go on a guilt trip cause of that!!

This morning, he sends another text saying to please buzz him when i'm free.

I do so and he gives me a mini-shocker.

He says the little girl wants to talk to me. Now i'm like what's that about?????

So out of curiousity i collect her number( i don't want her having my no and all that paparazzi) and give her a ring from my office line/phone.

She picks and i say "so i heard you wanna speak to me" Then she says she just wants to apologise for coming between me and my ex... she's so sorry, she don't want me bearing her grudge and stuff. That she didn't know he was involved with someone at the time she met him and all that paparazzi......

At this point i'm thinking.. "wetin be this one now?"

So i tell her, i truly bear her no grudge(really she's of no significance to me) and the relationship broke up for reasons that didn't quite include her(at least i hope she was not a catalyst to the whole degeneration of the relationship)!!!

Since then i've been wondering, which kain thing be this, this early morning for that matter?

Was that really the reason she wanted to speak to me?

All sorts that i've seen in this my short span of life, true....

Last night....

I couldn't sleep

It was cold

I remembered the passion we shared

Morning, Afternoon and Night

Your touch always felt the same

At those times

Nothing else mattered

Just your gentle voice(twas at that time anyway)

And the sound of my name on your lips and yours on mine

I loved scratching your arms at those times

The tingly feelings you always made me feel

All gone now....

I really missed you last nite!!!!!

You know who you are

Living In Lagos Can Be So....

Horrendous and traumatic!!!!!!!


Woke up late and decided not to rush off because i anticipated traffic on all the roads.

So i left home when i "guessed" that traffic would have eased off however i still drove in traffic for over one hour and a half.

The roads were flooded, pot holes everywhere!!!

In fact i don't think anyone in this office got here early today, na so so traffic we all dey complain....

I'm about to write a petition to the Lagos State government. They just have to do something about this mess on all the roads

Ahahn

What a mess truly....

Today i just didn't feel like work

So i lied to everyone that i had to see a doctor and i came in at about 1pm.

Stopped by to talk with my ex instead.

My work of course suffered and i really felt bad so i decided to stay extra hours and correct my wrong.

May the Almighty God forgive me for this bad thing i did today.

I'm truly tired of this work, but on searching my self i realise that i have barely put in any extra effort into the job and thus i shouldn't expect it to fufill me so much

I also stumbled on the scripture that asks us to "do things/ work diligently/ make our service as unto God instead of unto man" and i commit to doing that henceforth.

I will be here before resumption time as much as is within my power except on days when traffic is truly beyond me!!!

And actually work diligently, instead of chit chatting and browsing silly sites...

I need to put a lot of things in order.

I have realised that i have spent a great part of me and my time trying to please others/make them happy and much to a large extent neglected to develop myself or make myself happy.

Seeing that i have exhausted my energies on other people/things who have by the way barely acknowledged it or appreciated it, i have decided to do more of "self" investments and development right now.

So for now, my main focus is just making myself totally happy and serving God diligently....

;)

I talked with my ex last nite/today....

And if only....

I could turn back the hands of time

I would not have always hung around him like i had no other life asides with him

I would also not have got into so many "fights" just because i wanted to spend the night with him

Looking back now, i should have allowed him BEG me and done so only on rare occasions.

My bad,i thought it was good opportunity for us to bond.;(

Apparently he was never quite tripped by it.

I also would never have come clean about my real financial status(then). I thought we could walk that path together

I cringe every time he mentions "how i am unable to manage my monies"

All because i came clean and told him about my "investments that went down the drain"

I thought i was also doing the right thing every time i quarrelled with my folks just to be with him.

I didn't think he'd encourage me because it's not a nice thing to do i know.

But i definitely didn't think i'd ever hear him use these things against me.

I mean i did some of them for him!!!

Ah, and then there's the famous "I never tell him the truth" . True i sometimes did not tell the truth.

But really i do not know why i keep telling him things that are not true....

Maybe because he could be so so judgemental and nothing was ever acceptable in his sight.

All the energy channeled into making the relationship work!!!!

All gone down the drain.

Then he says i do not exhibit my values....

That he does not even know if i have any!!!!

Just imagine oh.

He really had a lot to say

Funny thing i really was not as sad as normally i'd be after talking with him, or more like receiving a lecture from him.

Guess i'm kinda stronger now.

Even now for the first time in a long time, i'm relieved we're over

I'm going to avoid him like a plague for a while to get my "head" back together

I've decided to be objective and accept where i was wrong and brace myself for the next boy that comes my way!!!

God help him.....

While i was busy....

A close friend of mine has had a bit of financial troubles recently and i was busy casting stones at her (albeit i my mind) and feeling like i was better than her because my money(and even other) woes didn't seem so "prominent" or "visible" to the world.



Only when i took a step back and brought my nose down from my high horse did i realise that my financial challenges were many too and i really am not on top of my game as per money matters n stuff.



The difference between us, may be the fact that i am aware of some of my excesses that cause me these strains and i am on the path to recovery. By tracking my spending(s) and cutting down on frivolities until i'm back at my financial apex(or at least i'm quite close to it) I believe i'm well on my journey to "squeezing water out of this rock" called money.


I know it's not easy but my contemporaries are doing "big things" with their monies and i will not be left off this band wagon!!!



So i've decided to also take a step back in other areas too and stop being so judgemental of people experiencing challenges, even when they are seemingly caused by themselves!!!!

I will also further look inward at my own short comings and work at improving them rather that "take painkillers for someone else's headache" as i'm wont to do!!!

I don dey old oh!!!

After spending like 5 blissful days at home thanks to the NLC strike(which affected all Nigerians except the government)

I resume(d) back at work today....

Not quite happy to be here actually, wish i could continue to stay in bed and still get paid..

So now here I am sitting here, drinking cranberry tea ;) and blogging

Anyway it was quite a happy weekend for me

My birthday was yesterday and my best friend/sister's birthday was on Saturday.

There was quite a bit of celebration as we "partied" throughout the entire weekend.

We made so much food and noise and on Saturday even though Nepa didn't give us electricity and there was no fuel in the gen, we had some friends over and had a happy time, taking pictures, eating and making plenty of noise.

The night took a different turn though when my ex decided to give me and my friend his perceived view of my shortcomings.

Tried not to get angry, and took it all in, believing that he was sharing these in good faith and supposedly for my overall good.

Some were true, the others were just trash and i promptly flung them out of my ears as soon as he said them

Anyway for my birthday, quite suprisingly i got many calls, a few texts but no presents hehehehe

In all i had a nice day sha, I decided to buy four litres of petrol at an outrageous amount of N1500 and then to my chagrin Nepa decided to be nice and supplied electricity all day and all nite...

Just imagine.

I'm still feeling excited even though i'm kinda nearer the big 30 now!!!

I don dey old oh!!!