Thursday, 16 August 2007

My boss hates me!!!!!

That must be the ONLY reason he would assign me a task that involves preparing a document, a powerpoint presentation and printing several manuals at closing time!!!!

I'm just so so raving upset right now....

Hissing so loudly, all to no avail here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And to think i've been lounging for most of the afternoon

Monday, 13 August 2007

Why in blazes??????????

Do people respond/answer " I'm fine" when you say hello to them???????????

It keeps occuring and it just drives me nuts, this afternoon again


I said "hello" to a colleague and she responded 'I'm fine'

Arrrrgggghhhhhh

Friday, 3 August 2007

Sitting here as nervous as a bat!!!

Ok so there's this guy,

We were in the same university even though we were not friends

Then fate made us serve(NYSC) in the same town and his house was around the corner from mine

We started talking at the tail end of the year and became "friends"

He kinda indicated interest, in that one night, that he came to see me and it got so late he had to crash in my room and of course attempted to shag me(Naturally)

We didn't do it anyway, and even when I had to crash at his, nothing happene.

Many years later, we met up again and have started talking

He has invited me out a couple of times and says we can always end up at his place if it's too late for me to go home and so that we can catch up on our lives i presume.(He works pretty late most times)

He makes many jokes about marrying me

He's cute and has a steady job. I'm suspect he could make a good boyfriend/partner and maybe even husband!!!

Last week, i was in a training near his house and i asked if i could stay at his to avoid driving from extreme of Lagos to another

He said fine and seemed excited about it

I backed out last minute because i was nervous about what could transpire if i spent a week in his room

I called him last night to apologise for not coming over like i said i would( i had not told him i changed my mind and he had called and smsed(hope that's correct) all week to find out if i was fine and still coming over.

I offered to hook up with him tonight

It probably will be too late to go back home

I'm nervous about sleeping at his

Anxiety has not allowed me get up from here to head out to meet him

My fingers are even twitching

Good luck to me this evening;)

Thursday, 2 August 2007

You cannot force a horse to drink.....

I'm just here to rant this morning.

I've got a friend, we're pretty close.

Over the last year and a half, she's been through immense pressures and challenges in every area of her life

I have been as supportive as i could especially because i was also challenged in some of those of those areas. I looked at my situation and dusted myself, made ammends were necessary and i'm better(definetely) than i was then.

Now because, i "love" my friend, i have provided steady support via a listening ear, actions where necessary and physical presence over and above the fact that i had to neglect family and friends sometimes during this period.....

Despite the fact that she has several annoying habits that i do not like, i have tolerated her excesses all the while gently correcting and giving her tips to get out of the challenges.

Recently, i realised that half my "advice" was not being heeded to and i seemed to be pouring water into a basket. Moreso, i was "taking panadol for another person's headache" because the issues seemed to bother me much more than the person actually involved. In that i would be spurred to action and she would sit around making a mess of things.

So i withdrew, and folded my arms and was watching from the sidelines even though it really hurt to do so. But there was nothing more i could do, i was getting drained from the issues and i don't/didn't think i was really making an impact.

Now i'm even more irritated because last week she had some new issues and needs to make a "drastic decision". I took time out to detail a few pointers/options to help her make plans and decide on her next line of action and days after, all she has had to say to me is that " she wants to buy a new handset!!!!" .Then she also showed me an unreasonably priced pair of slippers that she wanted to buy but it's not her size so she has been forced to return it. This is someone who has deep money issues oh.

I'm so ticked off right now honestly

I just opened my mailbox expecting to at least get some feedback from her on the issues and alas there was none!!!!

I'm so upset,

Lesson learnt - You can only take a horse to the river we can't force it to drink!!!!

So much for trying to help your friends!!!! :(

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